Sleep for at least 3 whole hours already. All charged up. Ready to go high. What can I do? Do spinning hook kick, flying hook kick, dropkick? Or the classic, bang the wall.

Haiz… my mum jus nagged at me again. She seemed to find out that I’m in love again. My mum wanted me out of tis kinda thing, like be4. It is not like I wanna to go against her… but she should know this is no one to control a teenage. Even for an anti-social person, I needed my own space and freedom. She could be there to support me and be there if ever I needed.

I know in my previous relation, she knows that I am in love and my studies dropped. She tot that after a while when my emotion stabiles(I had a depression when I’m rejected), I am out of love alr. Yea true I did had a big, serious depression. But did she know that after that, I still continued… I had change… she never knew that I’m still in love with the same girl while suppressing all the feeling I had when I am heartbroken over and over again. She was there thinking… ah good, my boy not in love anymore… and I dun wish he will go back into it. Well, sad to say, that time, I continued. No one was there for mi when I needed them. I’m a loner. Just hanging onto wat was left… I was so tormented.

This was all because of the strength the Lord gave mi, and mi being able to think positively, …etc. I was able walk alone in this bad mess. In the end, I still gave up. I think it is better to be friends. During these periods, did my studies dropped? is my emotion affected? No! I knew I was goin to go through these so, mum, dun be so afraid that tis will affect my life… whatever setback I have, I will just laugh at the face of it and continue… (weird quote)

Just after I gave up on her. Pauline came into my sight. She really made my day… I will love her wholeheartedly. And mum, please… I will never let you down. \/=~_~)/ (strange thing to say, not really to context! Haha!) and i love u mum.