So sad, yesterday I jus to tired to write any blog. Chat and told chiwei on how I felt. I never ever share with anyone how I felt. The “no love” thingie… I also dun wan to elaborate much. Those who wan to know and is truly my “friends”, please ask me. This is a strange feeling I had for years. Sad… now I know why I always skip the most important relation, friendship, be4 moving on into the bgr thingie. I was so afraid that I will just leave all my friends when I fall out of love. That’s wat I did when I truly 4get about my previous. I felt no love for parent, friendship, siblings, it was like… wat the he*l.

Ya! Yesterday, trip to sentosa is really very enjoyable. Started with a game of volleyball. I was like just getting the hang of volleyball, when weili missed the ball with her hand and uses his leg to kick it over and hit Pauline on her hand. Her thumb is like blue-black! What could I do!!?? I promised chiwei I would act as if she’s a normal friend. Feel so painful, not being there for her. Then we plae luge. Something like Go-kart. It was so darn fun lor. We buy tickets for 3 rides, $15 (one ride would cost $8). Woa! The last ride was so darn fun leh… we all would go down together. As if we were racing(although it wasn’t allowed). Then pei car went out of control and she was like can’t control it and swaying left and right finally crushing into one… and causing a major accident. Luckily I go by the side and avoiding it when most of them crushes onto each other.

After that, when we bout to leave sentosa, I finally had the chance to be with her, on the bus. I tried to talk to her, as a friend, didn’t noe whether is it cos she’s tired. But to me I felt she tried to shun away from me. Was it cos she was angry bout all the rumors, I was really sorrie… felt so bad…
On the train, I too had chance to be with her, but when I wanted to start out conversation with her… she was so engrossed in her call and all I did is, when I reached my stop, jus waved goodbye… hmm… couldn’t we even be friend… haiz…