Usual day... Not much to say bout it. At least, i will try to record some of e happening tis few days be4 i forget it.
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Well... anyway... i dun even remember wat happen yesterday...
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I can say, today's nt a good day. Yah i was sick since yesterday, feeling so lousy n stuff. Dun reallie have e mood to go to school, to tok to frens. I wonder why am i so weak, i fell sick ez when i dun exercise regularly. But i dun have e time, i dun have e commitment.
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Also, why am i still slacking around? Didn't i promised to start o'er again? I've planned for a lotta of things. I 've lotta things i NEED to do... why have nt started anyhing? Izzit coz i lack e motivation? Maybe... she used to encourage me n give me support whenever i'm facing a problem. Now tt it's all o'er, from where, can i find tt strength to continue again?
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God had made me to be special. I'm unique. Though i do nt show it... ppl known tis feeling as anti-soical. Yep... i dun reallie like to be with ppl. Be it frens, family. No doubt i enjoyed their accompany, but what i'm saying is tt i can still survive without them. I'm used to lonliness... I kinda like tis feeling n find it rather familiar.
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However, i dun wish tis to happen. I want frens, I want ppl who can understand me, to understand me. Till then, i won't remove e mask i'm wearing. E one tt seem so friendly, so sociable. I believe. If i isolate myself frm others... no one will wait for u, they will just move on. N u will be left behind.
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Anyway... i'm better off nw, being e vp of Student Council is e first evidence. It is to shw myself tt i can do it. But I 've being wearing tis mask for yrs... i'm tired. No one truly understand hw i feel. Pehape, no one can, except God.
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Anyway... forget bout those inner feeling n hmm.. let's see... oh yah... my sis...
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Reallie dunnoe hw can we teach her to be good. No doubt at times she guai n tt i find her cute, but she a terror i tell u. Veri unreasonable, self-centred, rude to me n even my parents. I can stand it when she shout at granny. I like my granny... n she dare to... Congrats to her, she muz be e first grandchild to be rude n disrespectful to her. Well... maybe i'm in e wrong nw tt she became like tis... i am nt a good bro as i can't teach her to be guai. But also, it's my parent fault. They pampered her alot when she was young and give in to watever she wants. I used to tell them dis shldn't be e way, but they think tt she still young. It's okie... How many times muz i tell them tt they shldn't teach her like e way they teach me. Since young, i've being tis guai... n u shld nt expect tt every of e children r like me.
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Oh well... i think i've written alot. Even though i've still issues to say out, maybe stop writting for nw. Lol... my frens on msn can't wait alr. HAha... hmmm, maybe tt's e prob with having a few acct signin in together with a total of almost 500 contacts. : ) (am i sociable or wat\/=-_-)/)