Tuesday, July 25, 2006
I sat on the bus stop. Hey here come my bus no. 58.... I wasn't sure what I was thinking, but i never stood up and let the bus jus pass me...
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Today is my worst day, i tell you. After missing tt bus, when i board another to go TP, I actually o'ershot. Don't know wat was goin in my head. After taekwondo, I even missed 3 buses.... first is 22, then 58, then 22 again. Then i finally boarded 58. I can actually made so much mistake in a day... \/= ~_~)/
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The day start with something unpleasant. When I went to my hamsters' cage. Head count~! I found that 2 more babies died... Left with 1 or 2... Sad man... Normally, such things would affect a person, (who like his hamster as much as i do) whole day. Not me, I picked myself together and continue my research. I think i have stressed myself too much. That day, I made a few important decision that would reallie get me into trouble if i don't achieve them. I may even get sued. More stressed.
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And for the whole day, I believe that I have not spoken to anyone. The only thing i ever say is hi and bye. Really need help. Don't get me wrong, I don't need anyone to care or bother anymore. The dreams and goals I have have already far exceeded anyone I knew. No one will ever understand me now. I set a expectation so high that people dun even dare to dream of. I'm stressed, I reallie stressed. I need not anyone to help by the way, I just need support. To achieve these goals, I already gave up everything I treasured most, my social life, my friends... the only way I can earn myself back some... whatever, is to get successful, achieve my dreams. Or else I lose everything.
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Can you believe it? Right after 2D ended, I've being studying all modes of online business, PPC advertising, traffic generation, affilliant sale. I already acquire knowledges that people are willing to spent hundreds just to know within these few days... I already put myself in the situation where I must succeed or else i die. Promised companies to produce products. And... did i mention... i tot Culture and Expression is just lectures? Damn~!!! I junior year senior(yr2 for short) told me that C and E is just lectures, no hw... and so i tot tt yeaH... i gt a few mth to start up my online business and so start taking orders... who know and the lecturers actually give hw... shit.... I'm not sure I have the time to tend both my studies and business at e same time...
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Well.... cannot blame him entirely. Bet he nvr do his homework.... : )
@ 11:56 PM
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Today is my worst day, i tell you. After missing tt bus, when i board another to go TP, I actually o'ershot. Don't know wat was goin in my head. After taekwondo, I even missed 3 buses.... first is 22, then 58, then 22 again. Then i finally boarded 58. I can actually made so much mistake in a day... \/= ~_~)/
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The day start with something unpleasant. When I went to my hamsters' cage. Head count~! I found that 2 more babies died... Left with 1 or 2... Sad man... Normally, such things would affect a person, (who like his hamster as much as i do) whole day. Not me, I picked myself together and continue my research. I think i have stressed myself too much. That day, I made a few important decision that would reallie get me into trouble if i don't achieve them. I may even get sued. More stressed.
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And for the whole day, I believe that I have not spoken to anyone. The only thing i ever say is hi and bye. Really need help. Don't get me wrong, I don't need anyone to care or bother anymore. The dreams and goals I have have already far exceeded anyone I knew. No one will ever understand me now. I set a expectation so high that people dun even dare to dream of. I'm stressed, I reallie stressed. I need not anyone to help by the way, I just need support. To achieve these goals, I already gave up everything I treasured most, my social life, my friends... the only way I can earn myself back some... whatever, is to get successful, achieve my dreams. Or else I lose everything.
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Can you believe it? Right after 2D ended, I've being studying all modes of online business, PPC advertising, traffic generation, affilliant sale. I already acquire knowledges that people are willing to spent hundreds just to know within these few days... I already put myself in the situation where I must succeed or else i die. Promised companies to produce products. And... did i mention... i tot Culture and Expression is just lectures? Damn~!!! I junior year senior(yr2 for short) told me that C and E is just lectures, no hw... and so i tot tt yeaH... i gt a few mth to start up my online business and so start taking orders... who know and the lecturers actually give hw... shit.... I'm not sure I have the time to tend both my studies and business at e same time...
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Well.... cannot blame him entirely. Bet he nvr do his homework.... : )
@ 11:56 PM
Thursday, July 13, 2006
O man... why i half way thru e module sick sia... nw it's like I everyday... no energy and mood to stay up late to complete my assignment... Still gt couple of assignments pending... plus come up with the final work's concept....
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I went to my nui er's school choir and band concert at victoria concert hall today and i happen to see my sec school music/A math teachie..., Ms Yammi... Lol... well... tt's abt all... o.. and ya... the concert quite ok... i gt nt much to comment.
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Hee... did i mention in my blog tt i am a super stressed student? I think i have... hey... so stressed till sick lo... can't take it liao... I like to analysis thing. So i frequently do self reflection and everytime i find something interesting abt myself... haha.. kool huh~!What i've found out iz tt i am so much so much more stressed up than... no wait... i think the most stressed up student in Tp sia...(wait till i go yr 2 n 3) Luckily and surprisingly i can still manage it. I am a student who aims high and want to get my As... so in order to do tiz... what i do... like i dunnoe paintin... i go buy books learn... buy books to learn to draw... redo my assignment till i get my A in every assignment. Those are my self made crash course studies which I am going for as my short term goal. As for long term goal, I aim to become e top designer and being an entrepreneur. It not juz a dream for me. To me, it is a must. To achieve tt... I bought 100++ on photoshop books and 50++ on entrepreneur guide. I spent any time available to learn new techniques on photoshop and extra time during weekend to read and plan up my business(still very inttial stage lar). For every plan, there must be a time frame, so it iz gonna be be4 yr3... I need to be super ultra pro in photoshop(to aid in me being a good designer) and to have at least setup 2 internet business alr. So by e time i graduate, I will be self substantiate and at most work at somewhere for 1-2 yrs to get e capital i need to further develop my businesses. Of course, if i can get into U even better. Go NTU's Design course and by then if my internet business is up and running alr, I will pay for the tuition fee myself.
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TT's my goal. Kool huh~!... Well actually it's too taxing lar... got taekwondo, no time to do assignements... I've alr fully utilize my time till can't take it liao lar... Sometime, i hope tt there will be someone who will support me whatever i do. Share my hardship, sorrow, pain and joy. A fren tt will always be there for me...
@ 11:25 PM
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I went to my nui er's school choir and band concert at victoria concert hall today and i happen to see my sec school music/A math teachie..., Ms Yammi... Lol... well... tt's abt all... o.. and ya... the concert quite ok... i gt nt much to comment.
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Hee... did i mention in my blog tt i am a super stressed student? I think i have... hey... so stressed till sick lo... can't take it liao... I like to analysis thing. So i frequently do self reflection and everytime i find something interesting abt myself... haha.. kool huh~!What i've found out iz tt i am so much so much more stressed up than... no wait... i think the most stressed up student in Tp sia...(wait till i go yr 2 n 3) Luckily and surprisingly i can still manage it. I am a student who aims high and want to get my As... so in order to do tiz... what i do... like i dunnoe paintin... i go buy books learn... buy books to learn to draw... redo my assignment till i get my A in every assignment. Those are my self made crash course studies which I am going for as my short term goal. As for long term goal, I aim to become e top designer and being an entrepreneur. It not juz a dream for me. To me, it is a must. To achieve tt... I bought 100++ on photoshop books and 50++ on entrepreneur guide. I spent any time available to learn new techniques on photoshop and extra time during weekend to read and plan up my business(still very inttial stage lar). For every plan, there must be a time frame, so it iz gonna be be4 yr3... I need to be super ultra pro in photoshop(to aid in me being a good designer) and to have at least setup 2 internet business alr. So by e time i graduate, I will be self substantiate and at most work at somewhere for 1-2 yrs to get e capital i need to further develop my businesses. Of course, if i can get into U even better. Go NTU's Design course and by then if my internet business is up and running alr, I will pay for the tuition fee myself.
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TT's my goal. Kool huh~!... Well actually it's too taxing lar... got taekwondo, no time to do assignements... I've alr fully utilize my time till can't take it liao lar... Sometime, i hope tt there will be someone who will support me whatever i do. Share my hardship, sorrow, pain and joy. A fren tt will always be there for me...
@ 11:25 PM
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
This is so frustrating. This is e first time i painted in acrylic, on an A3 size paper n it look like Wt*!!! It so nt nice. Personally, I felt tt it is the worst work I have produce so far in TP. Felt so... I hate it... I hate myself still nt being able master painting. In order to do well for this module, who knew hw much research i have, hw much money i have spent on books on painting(it's like, 80-90 plus lo)? I started frm nothing... absolutely lousy painting skills, i tot i put in lots of work, in e end, it's still trash! : ( Still remember the first few assignment, on of which is colour wheel, i alr did my best painting it, redid 2 times, but in e end still very ugly. Too diluted paint and unconfident brushstrokes... are some of my prob when I juz started out...
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To me, when i say i put in 70%, 80%... It is not actually what it sounds like, it's nt like i still have some remaining talent i nvr use. To me, 100% simply means I'm totally happy with my work. It seem tt when i was young I can reach 100% easily as my taste wasn't tt mature(izzit e rite word 2 use?) As we grow up, our taste for art apreciation gt higher and I'm slowly feeling tt i can't keep up with tt pace and quality of work remaining constant, I felt it had seemingly decrease dramastically. Die lar how. Reaching higher percentage wasn't reallie tt hard. I noe i can improve e quality of the work by a few way. Self-Motivation(which i think i did pretty well), Perservance, Patient, learning techniques(tt's wat my art book r for) and most importantly, my Skill.
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Haiz... to cut things short, what I am trying to say is... HeLp Me... I can't take it anymore... AARRGGG... super stressed ahhH keafheiwhfih y.c.WDHGnjkh,,j
@ 10:08 PM
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To me, when i say i put in 70%, 80%... It is not actually what it sounds like, it's nt like i still have some remaining talent i nvr use. To me, 100% simply means I'm totally happy with my work. It seem tt when i was young I can reach 100% easily as my taste wasn't tt mature(izzit e rite word 2 use?) As we grow up, our taste for art apreciation gt higher and I'm slowly feeling tt i can't keep up with tt pace and quality of work remaining constant, I felt it had seemingly decrease dramastically. Die lar how. Reaching higher percentage wasn't reallie tt hard. I noe i can improve e quality of the work by a few way. Self-Motivation(which i think i did pretty well), Perservance, Patient, learning techniques(tt's wat my art book r for) and most importantly, my Skill.
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Haiz... to cut things short, what I am trying to say is... HeLp Me... I can't take it anymore... AARRGGG... super stressed ahhH keafheiwhfih y.c.WDHGnjkh,,j
@ 10:08 PM
No... How can he possibly do tt~!!
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My 2D lecturer, mr Hock deduct 10% frm each assignment juz because i drew my logo in front of my artwork. It's kinda an intial, I put it in all my artworks... 10% leh... And thus all my assignment get B~! Only thing is tt e colour wheel i admit is nt reallie tt good, so a C.
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I'm so totally stressed up lo... i will be like need to pick up a new skill juz meet e requirement... It's like for DrawEss, we need to draw it very accurately and it's okay to have many lines just to make it damn accurate, but for e.g 2D ArFun, the line need to be firm and solid. Everytime, ppl see my works, they like wow.. wow... but do u think i'm reallie tt pro. To be honest with all of u, I'm nt. When sometime i sorta like say hw good i am... It is actually a method i use to boost my confident and power up my motivation. This technique is reallie true and scientific. I read it frm one of the self help book i read recently. When u place yrself in such a position whereby u must do it and with others pressuring n expect good works frm u. U will get all e motivation u needed. Like most of u guys here... I'm juz a normal teen with no special artisitc talent(hmmm... does tt sound familiar? Jamie? lol) but when i produce a work tt is for e.g 2 time better than some other work, the fact is tt i put in 3 times maybe even 4-5 times more effort. The reason i wrote tis to tell my fellow classmate tt if i can do it... y can't u?
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haha... some motivational blog. Btw, they r all true. Yep... even e 4-5 time more effort. U guys remember melanie's fabric? It's like so nice also. N i heaRD tt she spent abt 10 hrs doin it(or izzit 20?). Wait till u hear hw long i spent. I'm juz a normal human being, basic skills in painting i like spent abt 33 hrs... so based on time spent, maybe melanie is even better than me. All this acquiring new skills in such a short time is like so exhausting... and i was like so gonna ... watever. It like it's so taxing to my body and i was mentally telling my body cannot sick cannot sick. And with all these emotions going around me. I dunnoe if whether i can take it. After tt test, i'm starting to go back to my old self. Friendly? Yep... it being hard these dazes to act like super anti-social. It's nt actually a lie, but i used to be liddat and i can actually want myself to be tt anti-social. When i do, I'm sorta... reallie anti-social. haha. The details of hw the test is like u all go n figure it. Dun think too hard, it's logical n like my friend once say, mature. hahah...
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And pls, Daniel, dun call me an enthu kia lar... It juz tt i enjoy wat i'm doin n plus pressure frm everyone else tt make me like... so enthu. hehe... Well... Didn't i also try to blend in. The unenthu. As for block teaching system, i understand hw u feel coz i fell e same pressure too... wantin us to master tt module within a short period of time. Hating such a bad system is okay, but nt to e extend of expressing it in watever u do. Sometime blamming e system when u screwed up yr work. U r giving yrself excuses... N oftenly it is more important to know y u screwed tt assignment so tt u can improve. What i blog in e first few paragraph had show u how block teaching make me suffer, but let's all face it. This system is goin to stay if whether u like it or nt, so y not juz learn to accept it and try to fit in. yah...
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Almost forgot, as for body nt goin to take it... Mr Hock... say tt there's room for me to improve n pointed out on hw i can do tt, i was like telling him i gt no time and he say he dun believe it. I had alr maximize, pioritize, my time alr and . Omg... I like every week gt 2 days of taekwondo trainin so i have to stay in school till 10 and i had no play time, rest time is only when i sleep. I super tired lo... remember hw i get this quality of work? I put in xtra effort lo. How can u say i'm nt using my time properly. Do u wan me to even sacrifice my sleep time? Better nt if u mind having a zombie in class everyday.
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well... it's 1:10 am alr n i haven even started on my assignment on Dreamscape. Tata,,, cya nxt time. and be4 i go, I will juz leave u guys with a few photos...
@ 12:02 AM
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My 2D lecturer, mr Hock deduct 10% frm each assignment juz because i drew my logo in front of my artwork. It's kinda an intial, I put it in all my artworks... 10% leh... And thus all my assignment get B~! Only thing is tt e colour wheel i admit is nt reallie tt good, so a C.
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I'm so totally stressed up lo... i will be like need to pick up a new skill juz meet e requirement... It's like for DrawEss, we need to draw it very accurately and it's okay to have many lines just to make it damn accurate, but for e.g 2D ArFun, the line need to be firm and solid. Everytime, ppl see my works, they like wow.. wow... but do u think i'm reallie tt pro. To be honest with all of u, I'm nt. When sometime i sorta like say hw good i am... It is actually a method i use to boost my confident and power up my motivation. This technique is reallie true and scientific. I read it frm one of the self help book i read recently. When u place yrself in such a position whereby u must do it and with others pressuring n expect good works frm u. U will get all e motivation u needed. Like most of u guys here... I'm juz a normal teen with no special artisitc talent(hmmm... does tt sound familiar? Jamie? lol) but when i produce a work tt is for e.g 2 time better than some other work, the fact is tt i put in 3 times maybe even 4-5 times more effort. The reason i wrote tis to tell my fellow classmate tt if i can do it... y can't u?
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haha... some motivational blog. Btw, they r all true. Yep... even e 4-5 time more effort. U guys remember melanie's fabric? It's like so nice also. N i heaRD tt she spent abt 10 hrs doin it(or izzit 20?). Wait till u hear hw long i spent. I'm juz a normal human being, basic skills in painting i like spent abt 33 hrs... so based on time spent, maybe melanie is even better than me. All this acquiring new skills in such a short time is like so exhausting... and i was like so gonna ... watever. It like it's so taxing to my body and i was mentally telling my body cannot sick cannot sick. And with all these emotions going around me. I dunnoe if whether i can take it. After tt test, i'm starting to go back to my old self. Friendly? Yep... it being hard these dazes to act like super anti-social. It's nt actually a lie, but i used to be liddat and i can actually want myself to be tt anti-social. When i do, I'm sorta... reallie anti-social. haha. The details of hw the test is like u all go n figure it. Dun think too hard, it's logical n like my friend once say, mature. hahah...
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And pls, Daniel, dun call me an enthu kia lar... It juz tt i enjoy wat i'm doin n plus pressure frm everyone else tt make me like... so enthu. hehe... Well... Didn't i also try to blend in. The unenthu. As for block teaching system, i understand hw u feel coz i fell e same pressure too... wantin us to master tt module within a short period of time. Hating such a bad system is okay, but nt to e extend of expressing it in watever u do. Sometime blamming e system when u screwed up yr work. U r giving yrself excuses... N oftenly it is more important to know y u screwed tt assignment so tt u can improve. What i blog in e first few paragraph had show u how block teaching make me suffer, but let's all face it. This system is goin to stay if whether u like it or nt, so y not juz learn to accept it and try to fit in. yah...
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Almost forgot, as for body nt goin to take it... Mr Hock... say tt there's room for me to improve n pointed out on hw i can do tt, i was like telling him i gt no time and he say he dun believe it. I had alr maximize, pioritize, my time alr and . Omg... I like every week gt 2 days of taekwondo trainin so i have to stay in school till 10 and i had no play time, rest time is only when i sleep. I super tired lo... remember hw i get this quality of work? I put in xtra effort lo. How can u say i'm nt using my time properly. Do u wan me to even sacrifice my sleep time? Better nt if u mind having a zombie in class everyday.
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well... it's 1:10 am alr n i haven even started on my assignment on Dreamscape. Tata,,, cya nxt time. and be4 i go, I will juz leave u guys with a few photos...
@ 12:02 AM
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