Even when I am usually very optimistic, I really feel I lost all my goal in life. The sound that came out of the violin was really bad. Irregular bow stroke, bad tempo and bad intonation. I was feeling really bad then. 

What's my purpose and goal in life? I was asking myself. It came to me that life is not just about chasing goals and dreams. Before that, I needed a macbook so badly that I worked so hard but when I got it, my demand is fulfilled, I suddenly lost all motivation. Our purpose in life is to worship and gorify God. Sometime you will be different because not everything the world do is correct. Its kinda like a different perspective and different way of thinking that set us apart from the world.

Its just that the chasing of worldly stuff that make me sway away from what I am suppose to do. The moment I understand that, the music that came out of my violin became nice again. Ha-ha...

Anyway, I have a sister that I do not know to love or hate. No doubt I am still a very good bro and taking care of her, but slowly bit by bit, she's picking up my mom bad habits (with all due respect). She's also slowly developing qualities that I hate most in people. I do not associate myself with people that has these few personalities (not going to say what they are), but now my sister is becoming that kind of person. Talk about irony...

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