David from MAKE Studio actually wanted to employ me during my SIP. However I have to honor my words since I already promised to work in Convertium. Then David want me to work for him after my FYP which is really exciting, but hmm... but I have to still be cool and not look so desperate. LOL. Anyway, put the principle aside, another factor that prevent me from wanting to work there is Daniel is attaching there too. Ha-ha... Well, I actually don't mind working with him around. In the past, I was also preparing to work in Activa even when I know he might going there too. 

So my future will be moving towards technology and installation sector? Cool, that save me the time thinking of what to became when I grow up.

Finish all the goody goody stuff... now left with the bad things to say. I really am disappointed at my younger sis. It truly break my heart to see her turning bad. Just yesterday, to teach her a lesson, I actually punish myself. Sound weird...? Its like this... After a lot of talk we had over the years. She said that she misbehave because she forget what I told her (OMG, obviously that was a lie too, but this is not an issue...). So we made a deal that everytime I tap her on the shoulder, she should remember not to misbehave (sound like I'm teaching an animal... hmmm... but no, this is call anchoring). So back to yesterday... I was telling her why she misbehave again (her misbehaviour doesn't stop at merely talking back, she actually steal...!!! If I do not give the appropriate punishment, she might shoplift in the future!), and she say she forgot. Obvious thing to do now, is to tap her. But due to my carelessness, I accidentally touch her ear ring and she make a ULTRA big fuss and cry that it was painful. How hard can a tap be?? Obviously she was trying to get out of being punished by crying... (work on my dad, my mom, my grandma, but nah... it don't work on me) 

Even after I say sorry a few time, she continued the wailing. Suddenly something came to my mind. I bang my head on the wall a few time. She stopped and looked. Now my head is almost to the point of bleeding.  Then she realise that compare to the touch painfulness, this was at least 5-10X more painful then hers. Like... now she is not fit to make a fuss... Don't understand the situation, take for example in an car accident, someone twisted his leg vs someone whose head is bleeding profusely and unconsious. When the ambulance arrived, who will the medic attend to first. Obviously the person who is hurt the most. Just like tt moment, she is in no position to cry, cos I pain is much more than hers. However she still complain a bit that her ear is pain. 

Then I hit my hand on a solid edge that it begin to shake due to the pain and punch myself(literally) on the face. Finally she stop wimping on the pain cause by the touch. So stupid that I have to resolve this using psychology. And I had to go thru the whole process of lecturing her. Blah blah blah... 

After that lecture when I got back to work. My hand hurt so much I can't write and I can't even use the mouse. My head still hurt, my cheek is swollen, and my ear is red and hot. I never looked into the mirror, I know my ear should be swollen as well... Up till this point when I am writing this post, my hand still hurts. 

Look... I am going crazy right here, I rather be handicapped, if she as good as me, or even half as good, be a good girl. Just maybe having a few minor children problem(no one perfect right?)... THAN to have her becoming an ah lian, shoplift, smoke, become a problematic child. Just the day before, she say she want a skateboard. I hate to say this, but her result is already not good, she has bad learning attitude, result is not improving, what the f*ck she want a skateboard for! She don't even know how to sweet talk and maybe say her result will improve if I get a skateboard. When I say no, she just got pissed off and say she will get dad to get one. 

The thing that pissed me out so much that I want to vent it out all on this post is that just now I found a book she wrote. Death Note. Oh GREAT! The movie is PG and I remember the first thing I told her not to learn is to create a Death Note (I know she got alot of enemies in school) NOO... she make one anyway.... You know they ban Death Note in China because student there make Death Note and wrote the people they hate on the book and hope they die? Alright cool, no surprise my name in there too... Last Name, cause yesterday's event is the most recent. I continued checking through the name list. Almost all her classmates is in the book. Only a few of her friends is not in there. OMGosh like she really got an issue. I wonder why when I was in primary school i don't have these much enemies. 

Another thing they really make me furious is that she wrote grandma name in there too. OMGosh... the worst misbehavior to me is to be disrespectful to elder. Have you watch all those chinese bad guys movie. Even those 'bad guys' and gangsters kill, rob and do evil deeds, they still respect their elders and even parents. So I rather she be disrespectful to me than to grandma.

Normally, people would suggest discussing this issue with my parents. But hey! You know all this issue is started by them. They would always say she will change when she grows up. But that's what they say ever since 6-7 years ago and look what she is like now. Getting from bad to worst. And again alot of her rudeness, and other bad habits is picked up from my mom. My mom like to also complain alot. About work, about the things that happened just now, yesterday, etc. Also that's why they say guy die faster, they keep things to themself, they don't complain. All the emotional pressure and burden kills them.

However, do you know there's also another kinda of people...(people like me. OMG, self praise) who doesn't complain and have no need to keep them in their heart. To forgive others of their wrongdoings, which is a command from God. The world won't change because of you. (I won't be elaborating on all this cause this post is getting a bit long)

Long story short, even when I say all the bad things of my sis, I don't actually hate her and I will pray very hard that she will be changed by God.

@ 11:37 AM

Okay, a new personal project. I am trying to get Aspen Simulator (aka iPhone simulator found in their iPhone SDK) working since App Store just open for business. Not planning to learn to create any app with that, but won't it look cool to have a fully operational iPhone in your Mac. If I succeeded in extracting the app without the need of download the whole SDK package, I will pass this app around and share the joy.

Thursday, July 03, 2008