Im not sure if it was the effect of the caffeine I just taken or something else. Dear guys, you dun wan to read emo emo stuff. Just skip tis post entirely.

I really had a weird feeling. I wanted to believe I am wrong about it. Maybe Im jus too sensitive, maybe. Im tired... My head is spinning, I need rest. I need care. Im super negative now. I need to switch back. I need... sway my attention. I need more coffee. I need to drown the feeling. I need to feel loved. I need attention. I need sweet. I need chocolate. I need something to prove that Im wrong. I need help. I need to be not negative. I need to be positive. I need to release my stress. I need a simple massage. I need... just a simple laugh. Im so... tired...

I am a joker, because i love to see other laugh. I talk to everyone, because i dun wan anyone to feel left out. I work my ass off, because i wan a good future for my family. I stick a smile on everyone face, because... i hope others will stick one on mine too...

that's all for my random rant... i should feel much better now, but im not...

p.s. i need to look happy because i do want to spread the unhappiness to other, what a shitty thing to do. Please don't come and 烦 me~!